02

I'm sorry, I am a boy.

I'm sorry, I deceived the vast number of believers.

I'm sorry! I not only deceived Triste, but also deceived all my sisters.

I dare not imagine what kind of treatment I would receive from the believers if my identity is exposed. How would my sisters look at me?

Obviously, I am a boy, but I pretended to be a girl and got along well with them. Even if I bury my head in shame, it would be useless and I would be called a pervert, right?

Oh no, am I a pervert?

If I explain, would even I believe that someone would be willing to believe me just three months ago?

But what I said is true!

Three months ago, the Archbishop talked to me before he passed away. He told me - the saint who descended from heaven, conceived by the holy light, is actually a boy, and has been secretly raised by the church until today!?

Initially, I didn't believe it - how is that possible? Am I not a girl?

-"That's because they raised you as a girl since childhood."

Then, the content of his last words told me where the difference between boys and girls lies.

Then I collapsed and cried for a long time because of this.

Everyone in the church, even Triste, thought I cried so much because of the Archbishop's passing.

Of course, that was one of the reasons, but...oh no~! I still care a lot about my true gender!

How could the saint possibly be a boy!!

It's really an amazing story.

To this day, I haven't forgotten how determined the Archbishop pointed at me before he passed away - "The prophecy of the holy light won't be wrong, you are the saint."

And he also instructed me to keep this secret. Otherwise, once it's exposed, not only the image of the saint would collapse, but the credibility of the church as well.

That would be a world-level catastrophe.

That's the situation.

It has been three months, and until now, I still don't know how to explain to my sisters.

Because I felt guilty about deceiving Triste, I accepted the proposal to disguise myself as a maid and hide quietly by the side of the time traveler.

If I can't be found out despite disguising as a girl for fifteen years, it should be easy to disguise as a maid, right?

I'm quite ashamed of myself.

That feeling of deviating further and further from the normal path...

At this moment, I'm hiding in the bedroom, already changed into the maid outfit prepared by Triste for me.

Wearing the school uniform, because I'm used to it, it doesn't feel like anything, but when I put on the maid outfit, I really feel so embarrassed...

I look at myself shyly in the mirror.

A slender figure, white hair flowing down my shoulders, and facial features that I'm confident are no worse than Triste's. In short, I'm clearly a girl!

I only took a glance and turned away because it was too embarrassing.

It seems I still can't adapt quickly. Even if it was me three months ago wearing a maid outfit for the first time, I would still feel embarrassed, right? Moreover, now I know that I'm actually a boy...

I'm a little nervous, not knowing if I can complete the task.

-At this moment, Triste knocked on the door, "Fir, can I come in now?"

I jumped as if startled. Even though I've already changed my clothes, I still felt guilty and jumped.

My inner voice warned myself, calm down! Even in front of Triste, I can't show any flaws.

I pretended as if nothing happened and opened the door. Triste rushed in and immediately hugged me! My elegant image was thrown out of the window.

And I felt so nervous being held by her...

Before, no matter how intimate we were, it wouldn't feel like anything. But now that I know there's a difference between boys and girls...

"Fir, you look quite cute in the maid outfit."

"W-where...where did you see that..."

I blushed. Only I know how powerful that sentence is, as if she said, "You look quite cute in the maid outfit, even though you're a boy!"

Then her hands were wandering and reached my chest. My face turned red, and although I wanted to break free, I didn't dare to move.

"But it seems...flat?"

"Your Majesty, please don't do this...I'll feel really troubled." I weakly said, feeling truly helpless. If I really grew breasts, that would be a miracle of the holy light.

What did I just say? This...is her unknown side behind closed doors. Who could imagine that the queen of a country would do such a embarrassing thing like groping someone's chest?"You're not fully developed yet, huh?"

"I'm only fifteen... It's normal to not have, right?"

I said this while sneakily glancing at the rise and fall of her chest. Ever since I realized I was a boy, I knew I had lost the race from the starting line.

"Do you need padding?"

"No way—!"

Oh god, spare me from padding and stuff like that.

Besides, my mission this time is to guide the hero on the right path with the mindset of a saint. I don't need any external help.

"Don't worry, I promise I will complete the mission."

Although I'm shy, I am determined to assure her.

"I'm sorry, my dear little sister."

She hugged me and lightly kissed my cheek.

I dare not think, if she found out that I'm not her sister but a cross-dressing pervert, would she be repulsed?

"If, I mean, if your personal safety is in danger, stop the mission immediately, understand?"

She only gave me this instruction after evaluating me in a maid outfit. Does that mean dressing like this is unsafe...?

But she doesn't need to worry at all, because I'm definitely a boy!

Even if I encounter danger, as long as I reveal my true identity as a boy, I believe the other party, no matter how crazy, would back off, right?

But if I do that, my true identity will be exposed, so it is better to avoid it.

I admonished myself secretly, vowing to hide myself well! Absolutely cannot reveal any loopholes!

Then, accompanied by Triste, I walked out of the bedroom, through the living room - as the knights opened the main gate, in front of everyone's eyes, I walked toward the carriage...

Although I, as the saint, have been accustomed to attending various public occasions and being watched by people since I was young, it's the first time being stared at in a maid outfit!

Especially after knowing I am a boy, I feel even more ashamed...

After enduring this journey with great difficulty, I finally breathed a sigh of relief when I escaped into the carriage.