It was colder outdoors, so Heath Relia chose to chat with me in her room.

"Any progress today? You look so happy."

Holding the tea Heath Relia had personally boiled and poured for me, I looked at Heath Relia who was sitting across from me, after seeing that there was no displeasure in her smile.

"Sort of."

I admitted.

"Master took me out to play today, isn't that already very nice?"

"Hmm."

Heath Relia still kept her faint smile. I noticed that she didn't seem to have any special feelings about my master. So I stopped hiding anything in front of her. If I could talk to Heath Relia about the confusion in my mind, occasionally she could still teach me some useful knowledge.

"However, I feel that my master is treating me like a child. I feel that my master treat me a bit like she treat her own daughter."

"Hmm? Why would you think that?"

Heath Relia showed a slightly surprised look.

"Recently the master quite likes to touch my head. Although I like it a lot, I feel that the master treats me as if she treats a small child. So I feel a little uncomfortable."

Heath Relia smiled.

"And what do you want your relationship to be like?"

"I..."

Heath Relia's question instantly stumped me.

What do I want my relationship with my master to be like?

Of course I would like to be closer to my master. The closer the better, preferably to the extent of a couple.

Not only do I want to be closer to my master emotionally, but I also want to be touched more physically by my master.

When I came back to my sense, I suddenly realized my ideas had been so bold. How dare I imagine the relationship between me and my master?

But this is indeed my true inner thoughts. I repressed and restrained myself telling myself that she is my master. I even warned me that this is very rude, and reprimanded me that this is forbidden. But my feelings are uncontrollable. After my feeling is out of control, there is no possibility for turning back.

"Heath Relia...I seem to..."

"What's wrong?"

Looking at Heath Relia's concerned eyes, I started to get scared again. What if I tell Heath Relia what's on my mind and then she tells the master? Will the master dislike me for this? Would the master be distant from me because of this?

And I don't think it's possible for my innermost thoughts to come true.

How could the master like me with such a humble status?

"Well, I know."

However, Heath Relia smiled meaningfully and nodded. Then she folded her arms on the table and looked at me with narrowed eyes.

"Know what?"

"Do you think you can compete with me?"

Heath Relia's words struck me like a thunderbolt. I couldn't believe them. I didn't want to believe them, and raised my head to confirm them.

"What do you mean?"

"What advantage do you think you have over me to compete with her?"

"Compete for what?"

I still insisted on asking one more question.

My heart felt as painful as a pinprick.

Heath Relia laughed soon when I asked the question. She lowered her head and covered her face with laughter. It was the first time when I had ever seen Heath Relia laugh so freely and without reserve.

But please don't just laugh and ignore me.

It took about a minute for Heath Relia to regain her normal demeanor, but her expression still carried the lingering smile.

"I won't say anything more to Furtoril. You can just tell me what you really think."

"Really?"

"You still haven’t trusted me up to now?"

That's true. Before Heath Relia longed for me to be able to accompany the master to the end so strongly. It means that Heath Relia was going to leave the master in the end. How could she plan to compete with me for the master?

"I seem to have some thoughts about master that I shouldn't have."

"What thoughts?"

Playing with my crossed hands, my heart was a bit torn.

"Just... want... want to be with the master forever."

I ended up expressing my feelings in a more euphemistic statement, but I wasn't bold enough to say I like the master.

"Well, that's quite good."

Unexpectedly Heath Relia looked so calm, but instead... she was relieved.

"Why is it quite good?"

"Don't you hate her? You haven't forgotten that half month, have you? Or she is your master but you also dare to get close to her. Even if once you went through countless pain in her hands, you still want to break through those obstacles and want to get closer to her because of the later tenderness."

Heath Relia said out what I should have been concerned about.

It's not that I haven't thought about it.

Sometimes the more I try to figure out the intricacies, the more I get tangled up in the threads.

I know that at first I forced myself to stay by the master's side. I told myself that since I couldn't resist the master I was willing to fall.

But the reason is still the reason. At first I did not really have special feelings for the master. I just want to ask for more tenderness, and I hope she can look at me more.