I am afraid that I will die again.

Seemingly assure that I was dead, the swordsman didn't continue to mend his sword and turned to step away.

I saw the last look he gave me. It was like the relief that everything was finally at peace.

No hatred, no anger, no pity, no regret.

"It's ...... my ...... fault ......?"

My weak even humility words were so faint as to be almost inaudible.

And the swordsman turned around in a flash, his eyes widening.

"You speak human language?!" The swordsman's tone was surprisingly slightly disoriented, as if he was shocked beyond belief by what an unbelievable situation was happening in front of him.

Yeah, probably because, I devoured a human's soul.

"I ...... I am ...... What."

That's ridiculous, to care about that when you're already dying.

But I just want an answer.

As expected, there was no response.

My body is gradually falling apart, turning into tiny black ashes.

The ashes are scattered in all directions, emitting a single white light, reflecting the small space shrouded in black smoke with a pale color.

The face of the swordsman hidden in the ashes looked a little unreadable and complicated.

My vision also gradually became blurred. The extreme drowsiness came over me, and my eyelids became heavier and heavier.

"You ...... You don’t know what you are?"

The swordsman finally spoke up.

"I ...... don't know ...... I ...... don't want to hurt ...... Why ......"

"I ...... don't know ...... Why ......"

I closed my eyes.

............

It's dying again.

This ‘again’ just used subtlety.

But I really don't think I can resuscitate myself any further.

Oh well, just die, it's good to die, there's nothing to think about.

No worries, no troubles. No pain, no sorrow.

Moreover, no need to be a monster that no one likes.

No one understood me when I was human, and I died and came back to life in this state.

Then, of course, no one can understand a monster, as is common sense.

In fact, if you think about it, it may not always be others’ problem.

If I could spend more time with my parents and communicate with them properly.

Don't keep your worries inside.

If I could spend more time talking to my parents about it, instead of carrying everything on my own.

Maybe it will have a good ending.

The moment I jumped from the rooftop I already understood that choosing to die is actually a very cowardly expression, just an irresponsible escape.

To run away from all the pain and unsatisfactory, from all the problems that should have been faced by oneself.

My parents should be very sad at this moment. They may even blame themselves for my death and blame themselves for it for the rest of their lives without saying a word.

Thinking about it, I actually regret it in my heart.

But there's no use thinking about that now.

That's why I was made to become a monster that can't communicate with people after I die, right?

Is this a punishment for my immaturity?

............

If I am given another chance, I will definitely, definitely, definitely, not choose to run away again.

Even with more hardship and pain, I will definitely live well.

I also don't know if I will see Xiao Xi again after I die this time. She must be waiting for me in that world, will she scold me?

That silly girl, following me, a complete loser, is still happy and joyful every day, making me happy also.

It's really true that she is too simple-minded, or she is simply heartless.

For her, happiness is probably a very simple thing, right?

I really envy such a person.

Hmm ...... Missed her pork congee with preserved eggs, although it's almost annoying that it's the same old congee every morning when we're together.

Haha.

Tsk, why is there so much noise around, can't I even die in peace?

............

Why am I thinking about all these messy things.

Heh, what?, how can I still think about things?

Eh? Can I still hear the sound of voices?

How strange.

Felt some itch on my face, reached out to scratch ......

............

?!?!？？？？

Okay, I've found it.

I'm not dead yet.

So I'm not dead yet! What the hell? I clearly saw my body turn into ashes, huh? Although I can't become nature's fertilizer, that's already too dead to die, right?

And not only am I still alive now, it seems that the pain in my body is also gone.

？？？？？？？

By the way, where is that swordsman, why can't I hear any movement? He didn't find out just now, right? Did he think I was really dead? Then I ...... Should I continue to play dead?

............

or ..... first secretly open one eye to observe?

Just for a second.

One, two, three, go.

I quietly opened one eye.

Then I saw that the swordsman, who was still standing in the same place, the face that was still calm and steady, was now just like a kind expression of seeing a ghost, with unblinking eyes staring at me and a opened mouth.

Oh no, I've been discovered!

I hurriedly closed my eyes again and continued to lie motionless on the ground.

"......"

"...... Hello."

"......"

"Don't pretend, you can understand me, right?"

"......" At this point if I answer it's me who loses!

The atmosphere was just right, like a magnificent finale to a magnificent chapter, the hero finally killing the monster and turning around to prepare for the cheers to come, isn't that how a story is supposed to go? If I let him find out I was playing dead ...... It wasn't my intention, but it's so embarrassing to think about!

Not to mention I can't seem to beat him a bit.

I'm just a monster anyway, so wouldn't that be nice.

I silently prayed not to be found out, not to be found out, not to be found out ......

"......"

Zeez.

"Ah!"

Feeling a hard electric shock to my butt, I immediately bounced off the ground and took a step back to assume a defensive stance, staring at the swordsman in front of me with a furrowed brow.

Then stretched out my right hand ...... Rubbed my butt, it hurt a little.

Hey, why my butt is so smooth ...... Huh, how did this bearded swordsman get taller?

No, why am I getting shorter?

Nor is it right, why can I move my right arm? Where's the wound? And my arm ......

I looked at my arm, the white skin was as slim and smooth as sheep's jade, just like a newborn baby.

It's normal skin!

Eh, eh, eh, eh!

Can't it be that I've turned back into a human?

I was immediately itching and a little excited, and I couldn't wait to have my body properly examined to see if I had really turned back into a human. But the enemy is in fornt of me, I need to stare at him for being attacked suddenly.

"You ......"

"You ...... Do not say, allow me to ...... think."

The swordsman was immediately interrupted by me just as he was about to speak, my eyes still fixed on him as I began to contemplate.

The black smoke that surrounded me and the swordsman cut off the outside world almost completely; I couldn't see outside, so the people outside shouldn't be able to see the situation inside either.

The black smoke snakes that were released earlier, if there was any connection at all, could not be felt at this moment, so they must have dissipated when I "died" just now.

The knights who are still alive must have been waiting for a result outside the black smoke, right? They don't know what's going on inside. The black smoke will kill them if they touch it, and they don't dare to attack, so now it's just me and the swordsman here, but I'm a little worried about the old man in the robe, wondering if he'll come up with any new tricks.

But having said that, this swordsman doesn't seem to be very afraid of black smoke. When he stabbed at my chest earlier, he was actually touched by the black smoke, but he didn't look like getting hurt.

Oh yes, the chest wound!

I hurriedly felt around on my chest again to check ...... No more wounds! Hmm? What is this? How come there are two more small, soft clusters ...... What the heck!

I stared at the swordsman whose eyes seemed to be starting to turn weird with a serious expression as my eyebrows tightened, and my heart had long been in a panic.

I realized that things seemed to be beyond my imagination.

...... Take a deep breath and relax.

Somewhat incredulously, wanting to confirm again in general, my hands trembled slightly as I gently grabbed towards the two soft masses on my chest.

"Mmmm ......" A tingling and numbing sensation came, and I immediately couldn't help but let out a soft breathe.

Wha the ?? ！！！！

Vaguely having a perception of the current situation, my emotions gradually collapsed and panic . I look down to check my body ignoring the swordsman looking at me with a playful eye. The first thing I did was to look at my body, my naked body, my naked buttocks, my slim waist, my full chest, and the bare ravine between my legs ......

Where's my Penis!

Me! PENIS!! Where is it!!!

Ahhhhhhhhhh ！！！！！

For a moment, I thought it would be better to just die just now.

Even though I have said it before, I want to be a woman after rebirth.

But that was a fucking joke! Don't take me seriously! And this body is not a loli either!!!

The mind collapsed and the face was ashen.

"Ahem, since you're not dead, let's talk a bit."

The swordsman spoke again, put the sword into the scabbard at his waist, and actually sat down cross-legged in place, as if he was nailing me down.

I took a break from the blow of imminent death and sighed with slight relief at the words. This swordsman was just too powerful, and I was a little afraid of him.

Now is not the time to think blindly, I must adjust my mood and find a way to escape from the current predicament first. But looking at him, he is planning to call a truce for the time being.

But I can't take it lightly, maybe he is confusing me and then giving me a fatal blow when I am not prepared?

His hand, however, was still resting on the hilt of his sword and had not been lowered.

"You ...... won't ...... hurt ...... me? Uh ......"

That's when I noticed that the voice, which was even softer and sweeter than expected, sounded somewhat glutinous in its spitting. Even though I had prepared for it, it still took me by surprise.

Well, now I basically was able to confirm it in my mind. I don't want to admit it, but I did, should I, probably, maybe, not necessarily? Anyway, I became a teenage girl.

Want to stand in the gale and sob ...... Two tears of parting for my beloved little brother.

Oh God!!! You don't have to play like that! It is ok to not let me die. Why you made me reborn hitting by the fireball and kicking ass. Now made me a teenage girl?

WTH?!?!

Wait a minute.

I'm naked, I'm not wearing anything, and this bearded swordsman in front of me has been staring at me since a while ago. So doesn't that mean that he has looked at me all naked!

If I was still a man, it wouldn't have mattered, but now ......

I think of this, I quickly clenched my legs, arms tightly wrapped around my chest, and stared at him with wide eyes.

"...... Put your clothes on first." With an odd gaze, the swordsman untied the pure white cloak on his body and threw it at me.

"Uh ......" I hurriedly took it and draped it over my body, making sure that I wrapped my body tightly and would not go naked again, and then I looked up to meet the swordsman's gaze again and surprisingly felt some slight heat on my face.

Damn, Chen Yuxuan why you blush, why are you like a pussy, are you never seen a woman or never seen a man!

Your mentality now is really fucking weird!

"Hahahahahaha, you're actually feeling shy! Are you really a monster of the abyss?"

The swordsman seemed to be quite new at this and laughed, like he had found some funny toy.

Laugh for what, you idiot.

I looked at the swordsman's big happy grin, and I could not wait to turn back into a monster and smash his face with a sandbag-sized fist.